Well, what can I say? This is the first time I am taking New Year’s seriously and I’ve made quite a few resolutions and plans in order to make this year productive, because I want to own this year! I don’t know why my attitude towards the New Year suddenly changed though, but I think it’s because of what happened during the 1st of January.
I don’t want to go to the specifics, but let’s just say that I embarrassed myself in front of lots of people, and they were expecting so much from me. HAHA! I just realized during that time that it’s not that I don’t have a gift or a talent to show to other people, it’s just that I don’t have the confidence to show whatever I have. I don’t have the confidence to learn new things because I’m always thinking of what other poeple will think of me if I do this or if I do that.
But this year? What the heck, I don’t care anymore! I mean, this is so cliche but life is indeed too short and if I don’t let myself enjoy the moment, what’s going to happen to me? My life is going to be full of what-ifs. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life wondering what would have happened if I just did what I wanted to do and didn’t mind what other people would say. I am actually pretty daring when no one seems to give a damn in what I’m doing, but once they notice, I suddenly feel like I have to live up to their expectations.
I’m turning 20 this year, so I also feel like 2013 is the last chance I have to savor every moment of my teenage life. After this year, it’s going to be all work for me (or maybe not, I’ll figure that out after graduation HAHA) so I want to make the most out of it! And I think this year is starting pretty well for me. Last Saturday I attended my favorite singer’s concert (Regine Velasquez’s Silver Rewind concert, for those Filipinos who know :D) and I’m still on a high right now! Then, next week, I will be going to Cebu for the first time to experience the Sinulog Festival! I am so excited! I will also be going back to Baguio next month for the PMA Homecoming! Hmm, why do I feel that this year is going to be eventful? Hmm 😉
So how was your New Year? Is everything going well so far? 🙂