It’s been weeks since I came home from Taipei (or has it been a month already?)! And what have I been up to since I came back?
Not much, really. Most of the time, I’m stuck at home trying to get used to everything again. For the most part, I’m doing okay. I mean, I lived here for most of my life right? But still, I never thought there would be some things that would take a bit of time to re-adjust to!
Moving back in
Living in a small-ish apartment all by myself meant that I only had very few stuff in my house, so just imagine my horror when I moved back in and realized how much stuff I have in my bedroom here in the Philippines!
When you’re used to living… *ehem* minimally, having too much of everything is quite overwhelming. For example, back in Taiwan, I only had a capsule wardrobe with a few pieces of clothing that fit me perfectly. But here, I have soooo many clothes. Like, I literally have 3 closets and all of them are full of clothes! How?!
And it doesn’t help that my bedroom is so much smaller than the one I have in Taipei, so I’ve been having a hard time reorganizing because it’s hard to find space for everything. Some parts, like the closet and vanity area, are fixed, so it also wasn’t easy to move everything around. I took the liberty of moving my bed to another spot to make the room look more spacious, and I might share some photos of the new bedroom setup once everything is settled! This might take some time though…
I miss being able to go out whenever and wherever. I’m not really able to do that here in Metro Manila because I need a car if I want to get around. Cars are increasingly becoming necessities here, and I don’t feel comfortable taking public transportation here too. This is part of the reason why I’m almost always home.
I’m not very fond of driving in Metro Manila so I really miss public transportation in Taiwan. I miss living less than 5 minutes away from a bus stop. I miss having bike lanes and riding the MRT or High Speed Rail. I also miss the riverside park near my home, where I can go for a run or go cycling if I want to exercise outdoors.
I lived alone in my own apartment so it took a while to channel my inner extrovert and get used to living with family again. I don’t remember family life being so stressful, with people always calling on me and having to do things for them. I also feel like I’m in a constant state of performance anxiety, where I feel like everything I do is being judged and everything is micromanaged to make sure that I’m doing things according to my parents’ preferences. I feel like a kid again, really… and it’s stressing me out.
On the bright side, when I came back to the Philippines, word got around pretty quickly and I was able to meet up with a lot of my close friends. I even met up with my former colleagues in my previous job, and it feels so good to see that nothing has changed since the last time we saw each other. I never felt awkward or anything even though we haven’t seen each other in a long time. Instead, everything just felt like we were picking up right where we left off <3
Oh, how I missed speaking in Tagalog!
I have no problem speaking in English and I also don’t mind talking to people in [broken] Chinese in Taiwan, but… oh, it feels so good to finally be able to talk to people in the language I’m most comfortable with! It feels great to stroll around a place and hear people speak your language. It used to be a rarity for me in Taiwan to hear my language being spoken in the streets, so whenever I hear Tagalog around me, I feel like I’m truly home.
But then, I also miss hearing and speaking Chinese in my everyday life! Actually, it’s funny how I’ve been speaking more Chinese to myself ever since I came back home! XD I think it’s just my way of making sure that I don’t forget everything I’ve learned; but still, I bet my family finds it weird that I’m muttering Chinese to myself or thinking out loud in Chinese! I haven’t gotten around to continuing my Chinese lessons though, I think I’ll get it sorted after I finish settling down. Right now, I’m still taking care of higher-priority things so I couldn’t really devote much time to it.
It’s really surprising how my country’s popular culture evolves so much in such a short span of time. I’ve only been gone for a few years, but I don’t understand the local slang terms anymore! I no longer understand the new Filipino memes and why people find them funny. I’m super outdated regarding the Filipino popular music scene, which I heard is very much alive and kicking right now.
I’m trying to catch up with the local music scene through Spotify1. I usually prefer owning my music but people say Spotify is a good way to discover new artists, so I signed up for it. I’m also trying to be more active in social media to understand the memes and slangs. I feel like I need to be more social media-savvy to be able to relate to conversations with my friends XD
I was also very happy to hear that a lot of interesting Filipino movies are being shown and produced right now, and there were a couple of really nice ones that were shown when I was away. There’s lots of new actors I don’t know of too. To catch up, I went out and watched one of the most talked about movies in my social circle: Goyo: Ang Batang Heneral (Goyo: The Boy General). It’s a historical movie based on the life of Gen. Gregorio del Pilar, one of the youngest generals of the Philippine Revolutionary Army during the Philippine-American War. This movie is part of a historical movie trilogy revolving around the heroes of the Philippine-American War (1899-1902). Having seen the first movie in the trilogy (Heneral Luna) before I left, I had high expectations for this one. It didn’t disappoint! It’s very different from the first film since this one is more introspective, and I’m so happy that we finally have movies that explore the country’s history and make us think about what it means to be Filipino.
(Now I want to write a review of Goyo!)
I still haven’t worked out a routine since I came home, since I’m busy with different things every day. Even my workout sessions have been sporadic, and I feel bad about it. One thing’s for sure though, it’s one of the things I’m going to prioritize once everything’s settled!
I’ve been trying to look for a job and have applied for several openings. But besides job hunting, I’m also doing my best to devote more time to my hobbies and personal development. One of my biggest goals for the coming months is to overcome my video and camera shyness, so if you find yourself reading blog posts with more photos and videos, that’s because I’m making a conscious effort to take more photos and videos of myself to get used to the way I look and speak!
I still have lots of things to do before I can truly say that I’ve settled back in; but for now, I’m just taking my sweet time and resting up, because I will be on another trip this coming week and I’ll have to look for a job soon after. I’ll take this opportunity to unwind and plan for what I’m going to do next!
- I like to own my music and I have a separate iOS device just for my music collection, but my family opted for a Spotify Family plan a few months so… okay, why not? ↩